Some things make me just angry

Number 1: Social Conservatives 

(and by this I mean people who are homophobic and people who act on prejudices and stereotypes)

For those homophobes: I believe these people use the Bible and reasoning for being against homosexual individuals. The Bible is now giving people a reason to hate?  I am not going to go on a rant about how many gay friends I have and how I wish a better life for them.  I am talking about giving all people optimum quality of life available.  Equality. This religion crap is just bullshit.  Have you ever met a homosexual individual? They were born that way just like a strait individual.  If you do not believe that homosexuals are born that way, that it is their choice, then why the hell would anyone CHOOSE to be homosexual?  I don't usually think....hmm I am going to go be with a girl today and maybe go back to being strait the next two days.  You do not choose these types of relationships.  And also, why would someone choose to live such a discriminatory life?  Why would I choose to live a life where I would be prejudiced against buying a house, having children, getting married, and how I am socially interacted with?  Then, if you knew a person who was openly gay, that means he/she had to risk relationships with people when coming out.  I myself would not know how my conservative parents would react if I told them I was gay.  It is sad that I would weigh the possibilities that they would kick me out of the house, we would not be as close, and they would always feel uncomfortable around me.  Love is love.  Take two people fighting to get married: waiting (usually in a different state than their own) in line, being yelled at and socially excluded, all in the name of being tied to another person?  If two gay people are intent on getting married, they are in love---not because they are choosing to live this particular life. Or lets weigh this fact: what if no gay person told anyone they were gay?  Would you know if they were or not?  Would it matter?  Is that all that defines a person? Think about it.

Racism: Everyone is racist.  I'll say it again: Everyone is racist.  It's a fact.  It is impossible not to be in this culture.  It's a turning point when you decide not to act when necessary or act on racism.  I think the "deciding not to act" is what makes me most mad because it is more common than people think.  It could range from not approaching someone because of their race, to laughing at a racist joke.  I know how pissed I get at housewife jokes because I am female; and those are usually never said because they are now more socially unacceptable.  Think of all the racist jokes you have ever heard? Some definitely more than once? I know I have.  Have you ever said anything?  There are stereotypes about African Americans who all are in gangs and steal, Hispanics who are poor and dirty.  I think it is sad to classify an entire group of people so negatively.  Believe it or not, there are white people who are in gangs and steal and are poor and dirty.  But you don't classify white people that way.  White people are successful and clean and contribute to society. It's called white privilege.  Please read the 2nd and 3rd and 4th page list: http://www.case.edu/president/aaction/UnpackingTheKnapsack.pdf    And to everyone who is not convinced, step into a kindergarten classroom with children of various races.  Can you attach these prejudices to them? 

And that is just something I have been thinking about.  This entire post was inspired by this picture: child_vulture.jpg

Whateyano...

These are two separate lives (I would even go as far as separate people):

1. College Student

2. High School Math teacher

I am now supposed to bridge the gap.  How you might ask?  Good question.  

Those are two completely different characters!  The "college student" life is about having fun, going nuts, working hard, being with your friends.  The "High school math teacher" life is about responsibility, working hard, impressing coworkers, finding a place to live, paying bills, finding a partner, earning a salary....you get my drift.  It's kind of a change from my spoiled life as a college student.  To be honest, I am not too worried about my career as much as I worry about the responsibilities that come along with....you know...growing up.  I have never been independent from my parents for any length of time when it comes to money.  To this I am extremely grateful, don't get me wrong, it just makes transitioning that much of a step.  I just hate all of the uncertainty and I think I am really clueless about how anything works.  I am also afraid of living by myself.  This fear can change all the time because part of me loves the independence, I can keep the place clean and not worry about roommates getting it dirty, and I can decorate it how I want.  However, I know how reliant I am on people.  I am definitely not one of those people who can just be by themselves for more than two nights in a row.  I must constantly be in motion and be with my friends or other people.  I don't know if that's a good or bad thing but I know that about myself.  My argument for this is that I will be around people and kids all day, that maybe I would just want to be alone.  

Another life change will be not going out every single weekend.  This I am completely fine with to be honest.  Not only does it get expensive sometimes, but it wears my body out.  I do love going out once in a while, more so when I am at school, yet it seems to get redundant after a while.   

A life change that I am totally ready for is my career! I am so stoked to be a teacher.  I am sick of going into other people's classroom and having to follow their style.  I have no doubt in my competence in the area.  I just feel so READY.  I am a little terrified of the workload, but I will just have to work through it.  

I can go on about teaching in another post, but as of now (kind of abruptly...sorry) I must go

tata for now!

10,000 years later...

So what has happened since my last entry?

-I finished three years of my undergrad in Mathematics Education (1 more year left!)

-I had a serious boyfriend for 9 months

-I picked up some random hobbies and workouts (yoga anyone?)

So my last entry talked all about love...well I think I found it in my last relationship. But that ended.  Awesome.  I now firmly believe that love comes in many different forms and I can no longer deny its existence.  Now I only hope to understand the differences between them. My ex was a very good boyfriend, the best I have ever had, but although he was the best so far, doesn't mean that he was right for me.  I felt I learned a lot about myself and what I want in a man.  I used to have a laundry list of a ton of different traits and physicality's (like Andy ) but I don't think that is how you find someone to love.  My only condition (besides age---I am not going to marry super young or old) is that the person I am with shares my philosophy on life.  Deep right? Not when you really think about it.  I think a partnership requires a type of balance; like each person should complement the other.  I love to socialize and be around other people, so I need someone who shares that joy--whether he is the life of the party or someone who likes to lie low.  I want someone who has passion for something, like the way I feel about my profession or staying healthy.  And mostly, I want someone who is optimistic and enjoys what life has to offer, who makes the most of it, who likes to have fun!  I don't think you can label someone as too talkative or too pushy or too sensitive, I think you need to find someone who shares exactly your view of how your life should be lived.  I believe successful couples push the other to be a better person, and support one another through every obstacle.  

To be completely honest, most days I have no doubt that I will get married.  It's just a matter of when it is going to happen.  I am just through picking apart every guy I know or constantly wondering when I will find that special someone.  I believe too much in fate to bring two people together.  I think that whole idea of fate itself is romantic.  It is just frustrating to wait around all the time. haha

Another part of me that has changed is the acceptance of myself, give or take a few days here and there. (Everyone is like that common)  I used to have such low self-esteem; lower than I have ever realized.  I think it has been the reason for bad relationships and how I presented myself.  I realized that I was settling for less than what I deserved and it prevented me from harboring good relationships with people.  I feel now that I know what I want and I am not afraid to stand up for myself to get it.  (Not in the cocky sort of way I used to fake to pretend that I was confident) The only thing that scares me to death is if I lose that confidence.  

I guess I could go on more about that but time is of the essence and it is time to start living the life! (aka summerfest!)   

Maybe I will post again, within this next year? haha

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